Sometimes Life Gets You Down

It's been a while since I've posted anything, I haven't been up to it truthfully.  As it is this one will likely be short.  Last year was so hard, thankfully I went into it with the mindset that I would make the best of the year no matter what happened, and I did that pretty successfully.  Then this year started the same way and at this point I'm just drained completely.  And all my nieces and nephews are far away from me now :(  I finally talked myself into buying new socks - don't try and kid yourself you know it's one of the least pleasant things to buy, topped only by new undies - and then I found $3 clearance sneakers and slip on shoes...only to have the backs come up higher than my new socks so I get blisters -_-  Also, super long story short, I have to move because of idiocy. I know I'm complaining which I try not to do, but today everything hit me all at once, 9 deaths in less than a year, family turning their back on you in a time of need, just all sorts of poopiness, it's to the point that the sneaker situation is a major problem because that's the only way I handle things at this point...I need a vacation, and I don't even have a full week from work to take :/  Again, I know I'm complaining, but I just need to get this all out.  And here's as good a place as any I guess.  Before you start judging me for not "being happy because God..." trust me when I say I'm very aware of God in my life right now, I need Him all the time obviously but right now quite a bit.  I know I have it better than most of the world, than a lot of people around me even, but that doesn't change the fact that life sucks right at this very moment and it's hard and it's made me cry multiple times lately.  I know it'll all work out in the end, it always does because God's plans are so much bigger and better thought out than mine, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm going to go to my best friends house tomorrow and eat raw brownie batter and hopefully watch a really sad chick flick so I can just cry and get it all out.  I'll get there, I just needed to get all this out there.  I'll end on a bright spot though, I got married in December